My New Year's resolution
I have one.Stop filling your life with distractions.
It has been fun, but I'm done.
I decided that I will have no ephiphanies in this lifetime. I will not wake up one day and find the love of my life at my doorstep. My career path will not reveal itself when the snow melts. The winning lottery ticket will not be purchased by me. J Crew will not come find me and ask me to model shirtless.
If I'm to succeed at anything in this lifetime, I will have to learn how to focus on the few things that I have passion for. Those are few, but putting my free time toward actually accomplishing something has got to be a better use of time than hoping for the aforementioned.
To be honest- concentration has never been my strong suit. Yet, I am proud of what I've accomplished this past year. I quit my career and thought hard about what I wanted. Then I conciously went after it. This is the first time in my life that I didn't just stumble into something. And it feels good. Not stumbling, that is.
Blogging is great. I love writing and I love blogging. But blogging is just another way for me to not concentrate on more important things and seek approval. In fact, anything online- emailing, dating, etc. are just tools of distractions and attention-seeking.
I'm not knocking distractions or approval, but I need to learn to live with less of it. Seeking approval and attention is a SERIOUS problem of mine- in fact I'd venture to say it is at the root of what ails me. (We'll see.)
So, I'm done here. Miss me. I'll miss you. Thanks. And bye.
posted by madison's favorite son @ 1:56 PM
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